Almost done....punch list time!

 I cannot believe my guest bathroom is just about done.  It looks fabulous.  This bathroom is a mini version of my master bathroom.  I am really tired of having workers here.  It is kinda nice that it is winding down.  I am giving Leroy the last check today.  I am praying that these bathrooms hold up for more that 10 years.  I am gonna try my best to maintain them.  I know that man made stuff is not perfect.  The only perfection is the Lord.  I appreciate the renovation.  I do understand that I will have to keep it up.  Not sure what that entails however I am sure I can find a YouTube video.   

Change is hard.  I am living it everyday.  I miss my husband everyday.  I don't know when the day will come that I am happy with everyday life.  These bathroom renovations are my first major victory that I managed to get through with none other than the Lord.  HE gives me the strength and guidance each day.  Even when I feel weak, I can feel HIS strength.  What I would do to talk to Bucky,  I would give up everything to hold him.  Keep pushing forward.  Fight back all the negative feelings.  Lord what is next? 

Guest Bathroom.....well on its way!

 Start of a new week.   I have been having a difficult time these past few days.  My heart aches for you.  I find myself on my knees alot.  I am praying that the Lord takes this pain away.  I hurt.  I am trying to find an out for this pain that invades my body.  

All the while, my guest bathroom is well into the renovation.  Praying that it will be done by the end of this week.  My fear is that I have nothing else on my agenda to occupy my days.  I hate the way I feel.  The Lord has blessed me with these renovations.  When they are done, I feel like I am back to square one.  How can this pain be so bad?  I miss you.  I would do anything to talk to you and hug you.  Everyone tells me you are with me.  It is not the same though.  I know you really don't care because you are with Jesus.  I am here on earth and I hate it.  

Warmer temperatures are here to stay.  All I want to do is talk to you about doing things this summer. 

Master Bath .....just about completed!

 Praise Jesus!  I am thanking Jesus every minute.  The master bath looks great.  Today starts the fifth week and they are putting in all my accessories.  The mirrors, shelves and towel racks.  I love it.  I pray that everything is in working condition.  Everything was done by man so nothing that man does is perfect, however, with the Lord's covering and protection, I pray that HE filled these workers with the direction and the Holy Spirit to do honest work.  

My heart is full of gratitude for the fact I that I could not make it through this project without the strength of the Lord.  Today started out rainy and gloomy.  I read and prayed. I walked Xena and fed her.  Days like this one are hard to feel uplifted because of the gloominess of the sky.  It has rained on and off all morning.  I view the rain at times as tears from Heaven.  I wonder to myself, "Buck are those your tears?"  I know that is not possible because I don't think there are any tears when you go to heaven.  I miss you.

Tomorrow is the final walk-through of the master bathroom.  After I sign off on it, the demo for the guest bathroom will start.  This restroom should not take as long.  Praying there are no surprises when they demo it.  Again, nothing is perfect when it is man-made.