You can't always get what you want!

As I get older, what I begin to understand is that not everything that your heart desires can be bought.  This has tested my FAITH in many ways.  I work hard in my life to be a good Christian.  Ask any Christian, that is no easy task.  My husband and I have been trying to have a baby for years, I mean alot of years.  I am tired and I do not know if this is the end of the road for us or not.

"Trust the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on you own understanding. Seek HIS will in all you do; HE will show you what path to take." Proverbs 3:5-6

I tell you I really lean on this one scripture when I am desperate and in need of strength.  I know that I am not in control and I know that it is human nature to want to take control and act like you know what is going on.....NOT!!!

I am struggling right now because we just recently had a loss in trying to conceive.  I feel like this could be the end of the road for us to ever expand our family.  I do believe that the Lord has different plans for us.  I am praying for the next door to open.  There is no doubt in my mind that Our Lord will fulfill our hearts with JOY in more ways than we can imagine.  Having a child, even though it was our hearts' desire, was not what he wanted for us.  I am hoping one day that I can get use to saying that out loud. 

If I looked into my fridge right now, what would I find?

How many times are you asked what you would find in your fridge?  To tell you the truth,  I don't think that that has been a hot topic of any conversation I have had with friends.  In fact, I wonder if we take for granted what we have in our fridge not realizing that the contents inside are little gifts that we should be praising.  Sounds silly, I know, but the food we eat each day is a gift.  It should make you smile to look in your fridge because in reality the Lord is providing you with the nourishment you need each day!

So back to the original question of what I would find if I looked into my fridge at this time.  Well, I know for a fact that I have containers of food stacked every which way in order to make everything fit.  Do we need a bigger fridge or do we need to be grateful for what we have?  LOL!!  Sometimes, it feels like I am a player in the midst of a Janga game when I have decided I need to pull some sort of content out of our fridge that I want to eat or need in order to make a meal.  It is my turn in this intense game of Janga, I am looking at what would be the best strategic move to get the piece I need out without causing an avalanche of destruction with that one move.  Here I gooooooooo......

Bottom line, I am grateful beyond belief when I open up my fridge.  I feel blessed with the contents in my fridge.  These items make me happy because they provide me with what I need to fill my belly.  A full belly is a happy belly!  It is the little things that I never want to overlook!

For me, zeroing in on even the smallest things that the Lord provides for me and my family is equivalent to filling my heart with JOY.    

What do I look forward to each week.....

Each week I look forward to what the Lord has in store for me and for Bucky!  Of course, it is a surprise and I always feel like a kid waiting for Christmas morning.  As for the day to day routine in my life each week, I look forward to a good workout.  Working out clears my mind!  It kinda sets me straight with my emotions.  I can't say that I am buff and ripped because I don't think I am.  I do have my share of soft spots on my body.  However, I do believe in exercise.  It is a part of my life!

Another thing I look forward to each week is quality time with my husband/best friend.  I don't know what it is about us, but I crave time with him.  We have really great conversations about nothing.   His presence is comforting.  Each day is a gift with him.

I am definitely grateful for my job each week.  I do not ever want to take it for granted.  At this point in my life, I feel like my job, to some degree, is my ministry.  I am a flight attendant and I am responsible for the safety of every customer that enters our planes.  There safety includes making their flight experience comfortable, enjoyable, and memorable.  I do not think there is a day on the plane that goes by that I do not try to find a spring board in every conversation I entertain.  The springboard is the "kicker" to sharing God's word.  I am not good at it, however, I try my best to be  a good representation of it.  I aim to be a shining light in the Lord's eyes.  Believe me it is no easy task, but I always feel up to the challenge.

Treat every week like it is a gift!  There are times where life may bring you down, but remember the Lord will NEVER let you down!  That is what I believe and look forward to each week.

New Year.....2018

Already 2018!  How can that be?  I do not know what to look forward to this year.  I am excited though.  As each year passes, there is a complete understanding that I am not in control of my life...God is in control.  Why do I have to continue to drill that in my head?  Am I that stubborn? Hahaha! .....I guess so!

I have no regrets when I look back on 2017!  I am happy and content with all the blessings in my life and I do know that the Lord gets the Glory.  I want to focus more on strengthening my faith with the Lord.  I find myself to feel weak when I know that I should be taking a leap of faith. 

So let see what 2018 brings.  I am praying for little miracles!  This year is already a week in and I am trying to take each day as a unique gift.  I am planning on trusting God, spending time with my husband, reading more, and as I always say.....writing more!

The writing does not come as easily for me as I would like it.  I feel like I am a boring person with nothing to write about.  There is not a whole lot going on in my day to day life.

When I think about this past week in this new year, I have to say the most exciting thing to happen was my anniversary.  Seventeen years of marriage for us!  We are both thanking God for every minute of it.  The odds were against us when we chose to be together; there is not a year that goes by that I make sure I give God the glory for this wonderful man in my life.

Needless to say we spent the day doing simple things that made us both smile.  We went to the movies and saw The Darkest Hour.  I highly recommend this movie if you enjoy historical pictures.  I found it interesting and entertaining.  After the movies, we headed to the bowling alley to challenge each other in a couple of games.  We laughed hard and played hard.  I can honestly say we did not need anyone one else there for us to have a fabulous time.  It was a wonderful anniversary!

Let's make this year shine......in every way!