Fight Through the Pain....

The third day of the year and here I am presenting words to break through painful emotions. I know there has to be something positive that comes out of today because with all the bad that happens in life God restores it with the good. As in Joel 2:25.. it says, "I will restore to you the years that the swarming locust has eaten." I spent my day in a city that I completely dislike because it is so far from what my simple daily, mountain life is like. Not only was I in a city that I had such distaste for, but I was there to have a surgical procedure that I am still not completely sure what will come out of it when every thing is said and done. I prayed that the Lord would give my doctor the wisdom that she needed to work on me. I got through the surgery and now I wait patiently to find out what is in store for me. 

Meanwhile, the healing process is just so harsh...it just knocks the living energy out of you....literally. I am tired, worn out and a bit run down from all the drugs. I just need time to get through this healing process....grrrrrr.....who has time? There is always something that needs to be done and there is always someone you want to see and visit with..... So to add to my day of uninvited pain, we (my husband and I) finally get a response back from my step-daughter about a dinner invitation for dinner. Let me just say, it has been an extremely long time since my step-daughter has spent any time with us. It hurts just saying that....but for whatever reason it has not happened in a real long time. We originally wanted her over last night and she never responded to our texts or phone messages until the next day....that would be today! Ouch...to add to the pain that I already have....ugh! I would have loved to have her and her boyfriend over if I was not recovering from a train wreck (at least that is the best way to describe how I feel). I was honest and texted her the truth of the matter...I also gave her other options of day and times to hook up with us. I still have not received any response back....not even a "sorry" that you are feeling bad. I do not get it except for the fact when "anyone slaps you on the right cheek, turn to him the other also," (Matthew 5:39). 

I love my step-daughter and I will continue to try my best to be a positive influence in her life. Whether she accepts me or not is not my choice. I know I have to do what is right and not choose the easy way out that will make me happy only on the surface. God knows how much she means to me and He knows that I will not give up on her. Enough for today....until tomorrow....